I miss my dad more than usual lately.

I mean, obviously I always miss him.

But I go through my periods where I think about him more often than I'd like to.

I guess it's mainly when I've got something big going on in my life,

and then I think to myself how much I know he'd love to be there for it.

I know he'd LOVE Josh.

He'd be so stoked on me getting my dream job at MAC.

Plus whenever there's a holiday it just sinks in.

At Thanksgiving, Christmas, and I just had my 20th birthday.

I just can't believe I have so many more big events to come in my life, and he won't be there for any of them.

Life is so so unfair.