over.

Josh broke up with me tonight, after having an amazing weekend together.

What the hell happened?

1:50

Long but productive day.

Did most of my Christmas shopping, all day with mom.

Got some cute new clothes.

Talked to Josh a bunch.

He's coming to visit this weekend and I couldn't be any happier about that.

Just watched Big Fish, one of the best movies ever.

On the downside, I feel like I'm not prioritized like I feel I deserve to be by certain people.

But you know what?

It's whatever.

Done trying.

"Your arms in mine, anytime.

Wouldn't trade anything,

you're still my everything.

To my suprise,

before my eyes;

you arrive."

I feel the worst things in my soul.

Went to the strip club for my first time last night.

It was fun.

All I did was sit at a table with Cortney, Kayla, and Cortney's dad the entire night and watched the strippers.

But it was still fun, regardless of my eyes burning like crazy from the smoke.

Someone, please give me a job.

I need so much more of you in my life.

3am

I've been watching videos of interviews with Charles Manson all night.

Fucking nuts.

I will more than likely have nightmares tonight.

I wish more than anything I were going to bed next to you.

longest days

I don't feel like I know you anymore.

This has been a roller coaster of a month and my feelings about this are up and down.

Actually, I take that back, there's no way my feelings about this are good.

Just because I'm cooperating doesn't mean I like it, or even agree with it.

But whatever, I guess some people lack the ability to multi task.

And I'll leave you alone, and let you handle whatever it is that's going on in your life.

On a good note, Kayla is coming to Huntsville on Sunday.

And I am SO fucking excited about that.

Please take my mind off of all this bullshit.

this sucks so bad

But I know we can get through it.

you'll always be number one.

I can't see you, but I know you're there...

I sent you flowers yesterday.

But they didn't get delivered.

The company charged me anyways.

I'm picking up bad habits.

I pick up new ones almost every day.

I pick em' up while I'm on my way.

Most of the time I feel like I don't belong.

But I got my new favorite record today.

My favorites change every single day.

Except you,

You'll always be number one.

You are my future, you're my memories.

Please don't ever forget about me.

You mean more to me than any song.

I was asleep when you called last night.

You left a message, but I didn't check it.

There's a distance between us.

And that's not a metaphor.

It's just poetry from me to you, you know.

Most of the time I feel so uninspired.

But I got my new favorite record today.

My favorites change every single day.

Except you,

You'll always be number one.

You're my future, you're my memories.

Please don't forget about me.

You mean more to me than any song.

Random hearts in a cruel cruel world..

Yesterday was weird, but awesome.

Alabama lost, fucking sucks but we had a hell of a season.

And we put up a damn good fight to Florida.

I just love how the announcers were sucking Tebow's dick the whole time.

Oh well, hung out with Mark and Joey for awhile, which was nice.

Felt like old times again.

I can honestly say that one of the top 5 best times in my life was when I was at Mark's every day with Joey and I stayed the night every night this past summer and we'd stay up til like 6 am.. sleep til noon. 

And do the whole thing over again.

After Joey went to Erica and Waldo's, me and Mark and Andrew chilled, again, like old times.

Picked up Dara, she hung out with us.

Watched some old videos.

As far as other things go, I'm not very happy with it at the moment.

I just want to get past it though, because it's not a good feeling.

just woke up.

Went to Gardendale yesterday for court for my dumb tickets.

Had to empty my bank account to pay for them.

I'm officially broke.

Hung out with Kayla for a while, that ruled.

Got to see my boyfriend for like an hour and a half.

I miss him so much.

On the bright side, Mark is in town!

And I've missed him so fucking much.

So hang outs with him today.

Alabama, please kill Florida.

interesting.

A strange but productive day.

Cortney went to the doctor with me, went well.

Got some Moes!

Got my job back at Ulta.

Came home, chilled with the fam.

Talked to the boyfriend on the phone for a bit.

Now I'm gonna smoke some green.

And watch Wizard of Oz.

Fuck yeah to my life.

you're amazing

"if you let me stay over

I'll try to keep you safe

I've got an army of skeletons

to chase your demons away"

can't get enough.

p.s.

I loved the snow today.

Wish it would have stuck, just because.

Cortney Kristine day tomorrow because I miss hanging out with her all the time.

ALSO I'm going to Ulta tomorrow to talk to my old manager about geting my job back there.

It would be pretty sweet.

It's super easy and I know all about the hair products/make up/perfume.

CROSS FINGERS FOR ME.

first post

Now that livejournal is pretty much dead, I decided to go with the crowd and try this out.

Basically, I moved back to Madison from Dallas, Texas October 1st, exactly 2 months ago.

I'm pretty content, actually more than content; I'm happy. 

Well except for the difficulty of finding a job.

When I first got back things were weird and I started regretting it.

I miss all my friends in Texas and my sisters.

Most of the friends I had that wanted me to move back so bad have all gone to shit and have less time for me than they did when I lived 11 hours away.

But I'm glad, It's nice to filter out all the shitty people in your life.

Even if I only have Cortney, Caroline, and Dara, I'm totally fine with that.

I wish Kayla was here too cause I fucking love her.

And I wish Amy could be here too cause I miss her WAY too much.

I've also been spending much more time with family, which rules.

My brother and I have gotten really close and hang out all the time, and I love it.

Another amazing person that has come into my life since I moved back is my boyfriend.

He is awesome in every way and I have never been as happy with anyone else as I am with him.

He treats me so good and just basically fucking rules.

That's all I have to say for now.

More than likely the other posts won't be quite as long unless it's about something super important.

But I felt I needed to fill in on what's been going on lately.